Yesterday wasn't such a good day, but it did improve that afternoon.

I slept well last night until 0130 when Max woke me up to eat. I almost passed out in the kitchen. I quickly sat down on the little kitchen stool and sat there for quite a while waiting for it to pass. (Max was not that patient) I quickly finished putting his food in the bowl and went back to bed. I layed there for 1/2 an hour waiting for my heart rate to decrease and my blood pressure to come back up. It did not. I felt so miserable lying flat, I thought maybe propping up a little bit on the couch would help. So, off to the couch I went. It took about another 1/2 hour before I started feeling better and then I was finally able to go to sleep.

Yesterday I spoke with Vanderbilt. Everyone was so very nice! We are trying to find out how long to plan for being down there before I buy airline tickets. They called back once and said they would review some more information with the nurse and get back to me. It is all so very exciting!

I felt good on Sunday, still needed a nap in the afternoon. I did well this morning was to have a meeting in town, but it was rescheduled for Friday. I fixed lunch later this afternoon and then I started getting tired. I took a nap around 4pm. Irregular heartbeat woke me up. I was very cold, especially my nose and feet.

My blood pressure has been a little lower today than what it has been 95/70's with my heart rate in the 90's. I don't feel as punky this afternoon but I am so thankful for the last few days. They have been totally awesome.

Took my florinef today. Skated for one hour. I did pretty good today. Really tired right now. So, I will be heading off to bed shortly.

Dan has the Christmas lights up and now it is snowing!!

Held my florinef yesterday and today as my eyelids and above my eyelids were swollen. I hate that puffy look!!! Plus my ankles/lower legs are retaining water.

Pretty good day yesterday and today. I didn't go anywhere today. I was kind of beat after Wednesday and Thursdays activities. So, I needed today to kind of vegetate.

The wind started back up late this afternoon. It is getting colder too.

Tomorrow I will go skate for one hour and then go see Dan at the store, they are having a pearl show this weekend.

Another pretty good day. A little ortho first thing this morning, but that improved within a couple of hours. Long day, but good.

Wow, I'm back, I'm back!! I feel so much better! Dan asked me, "So, where have you been?" We always laugh about my trips to oblivion and the long road back.

The increase in my medicine has helped dramatically. Last night about 10pm Dan said, "hey, you've actually got some color back in your face." I felt so much better right at bedtime last night. We all slept well :)

Today has been just an incredible day. This is the best that I have felt in a couple of weeks. I didn't even take a nap today! i am getting a little tired right now, but hey! I've been to town twice, Skated at noon and again at 4, fixed supper and caught up on harrassing Dan (a very important thing,you know).

Now, I'm almost afraid to look back at the last few days of logs to see what I wrote. I never fully realize how foggy I get until the fog clears and then I look back and go, OH WOW, was I ever not with the program!!!!

Dan told me tonight how nice it was to have me back. I can't believe how much better I feel.

So, everyone, you can breathe easy now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rough night last night. Chest tightness kept me awake. I went to the couch and propped up. I wanted to go to the ER, but I really hate those places so I didn't wake Dan up. Dan called Dr. Li this morning he called back and spoke with me. We are going to try increasing my beta blocker to two times a day instead of one. I am to keep taking the florinef to counter balance the hypotensive effects of the beta blocker.

I am not sure why this is going to work, he said something about my level of beta blocker is too low and I am experiencing innervated syncope. What-ever!

I didn't go anywhere today didn't feel really well at all, but I am better than yesterday.

Dan's worried. I don't look so good. He keeps looking at me real funny. I finally asked him what is going on, why do you keep looking at me like that. He told me because I haven't looked this bad except four years ago. I said I'd just had a heart attack 4 years ago. He said, that's my point.

Not a good day at all. I went to SS and church. Dan didn't want to take me. I was very miserable about 1/2 way through the service.

I don't know what's going on. I do feel really, really bad. I'm just not sure what to do about it.

Dan says I haven't been quite the same since we stopped my meds for the those tests.

I'm definately in a pothole.

Yesterday was a rough day, especially yesterday afternoon and evening. I was having a lot of chest pain and Dan said I looked a little gray. I took a propranolol for the chest pain when Dan came home around 7pm. It did not improve. So, I took another one around 9pm.

My headache has continued all week, especially when lying down. I think the florinef is causing it.

This morning I woke up with the headache but no chest pain until I stood up. Now I am having that nagging chest pain. Darn mitral valve anyway. it may not be life threatening, but it sure makes me feel bad...

I only have to skate for one hour today. I'm so relieved, I don't think I can do much more.

Sluggished and fatigued this morning. I've been trying to work a couple of hours every Thursday and Friday, but I just can't do it today. I will stay home and work from home. I need a break I guess. Who would have thought that trying to work 20 measily hours a month could be so hard.

Moving about in the mornings seems to be getting harder, I'm so sluggish and slow brained. But, I am managing to get breakfast cooked and Dan's lunch made. Then I crash when he leaves.

Took me all morning to get going and get ready to go to town. I worked for 2 1/2 hours at the office, fueled up and picked up my prescription refill. So tired.

Lady's meeting tonight at church. I'm not really up to it, but I signed up for treats this month. Sue is doing most of the work.

Too much stimulation at the Lady's meeting. I came home and took a bath hoping it would help to calm my overstimulated system. It seemed to help.

Skated for one hour today. Awana's tonight. I'm getting increasing fatigue. New sleeping herb seems to be working, but it doesn't go down easy.

I woke up in the middle of the night last night with chest tightness and just a general feeling of being uncomfortable, well miserable. I had to set up on the couch, which helped and I fell asleep on the couch.

Tonight I am having chest pain, burning and I'm very tired/fatigued.

My get up and go seems to be going on longer and longer trips.

I have a feeling that I can't continue this pace much longer, but I wanted to try and see how much I can do. Things just seem to need to be done and I have no other way of getting things done than by just bucking up and doing it.

I have this problem with over committing myself when I feel good. I feel great for a week or so and during that week I feel so good that I committ myself to doing things that I can't follow through with when I'm not feeling so good. But, it seems silly to not do things when I feel good...

I sure wish there was an easly formula for me to figure out how much is enough and how much is going to be too much in a day or two.

I am trying that new herbal sleep pill again. I wasn't real impressed with it last night.

I'm so tired and foggy and I hurt, so I better close. I'm sure I am not making much sense.

Monday, long but productive day today.

I had an open house candle party tonight, so, I cleaned and cleaned the house. Dan eventually had to help me. I then had to go into town for a 2pm meeting.

It really snowed and blowed tonight but I still had a good turnout.

Very tired tonight. I am trying a new herbal sleep formula tonight from Swanson.

Sunday. Rough night last night. I woke up hollering for Dan to help me. I couldn't breathe. I think it was just a bad dream. But, it scared both of us and we didn't sleep so well for the rest of the night. Me, because I didn't want to have that dream again. Dan, because he wanted to make sure I was still alive by morning.

Church today. I slept in between services. I made it back for the evening service but I didn't feel so well. I think I was mostly fatigued.

I'm taking a benadryl tonight. I'm not going through that again!

Skating day. Physically, it is my hardest day of the week.

I was dragging before I was done with my first lesson, but I kept going.

The worst part about my episode yesterday is that it seemed to drag me out a little today too.

Overall, I did pretty well today considering my physical demands.

I did take a nap when I came home.

Well, I better close, I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow.

I laid down for a nap this morning before I headed into town for an 11am haircut. I awoke abruptly at 9 am with my heart racing I felt awful. My blood pressure monitor said my heart rate was 133. It felt awful and I felt like I was coming apart at the seams. It was very, very unnerving.

I made it into town for my haircut (my last one was in July, so this was really important to me and it was a new girl, so I didn't want to cancel). My heart had settled down, but I found myself tired and starting to get fatigued about 2pm. My brain just started shutting down and I was having great difficulty processing and thinking.

What a long day. I am so tired.

Today is Thursday! Went into town and worked for about three hours. I felt good and did really well today.

Skated today. Awana's tonight. A little off balance tonight. Feel foggy and very, very tired.

Took benadryl tonight. Didn't sleep well at all last night. Don't want that to happen again tonight.

Today was a two nap day, but I was able to accomplish household tasks.

I skated for one hour. I had some chest pain near the end of the first 1/2 hour. I was using my arms a lot! So, I quit doing what I was doing and started feeling better.

I felt really, really good on the drive home and while fixing supper and then while we were sitting down eating my heart started racing and flip flopping. It was most uncomfortable. I took a propranolol. It is a different kind of beta blocker.

I was so tired but I just couldn't fall asleep. So I went out to the couch and propped up.

Well, when I last posted the wind had stopped. Well, I was wrong! It only took a break for a few hours. That night it blew and blew and blew with hard gusts in-between. Sunday all day was quite windy. As you can imagine smog is never problem here:)

Today was much better for wind. Just the normal blowing, not the rip your head off blowing!

I'm doing pretty good. Didn't get as much done today as I would have liked, but I did get some things done. I needed an am nap and then again another one this afternoon. I just ran out of steam.

I'm tired now, it's after 10pm. I'm heading off to bed.

The wind stopped this afternoon! However it did start raining and snowing. I call it "SNAIN". It is about 40 degrees.

Up again at 6am. Fixed breakfast for Dan and I. I layed down at 7 and slept really hard until 9am when the electronic nurse hollered at me. Then I layed back down and rested until 10.

I headed out to the ice rink for a couple of hours. There was no open skate today so I was able to leave early. I took a nice nap.

Feeling tired tonight. I have a lot going on tomorrow. I hope I can keep up...

A pretty good day today.

Dan had to go in earlier today so I was up at 6 making him homemade buckwheat pancakes. Marge, A friend that Dan works with went back to Indiana, home of the Parke County Covered Bridge festival. Well, she brought me some fresh stoned ground buckwheat from one of the mills.

UMMMMM UMMMMM good!

I layed down around 7am and took a little nap until 9am. Then I was off the couch and taking on the day. Played with Ozzie, checked on the green house-it got a little cool out there last night. Tonight we will need to turn the heat on:). Played with Shi and Max and got myself ready to go to town.

I went into town about 11:30. Had to get a coffee pot for Dan. Then I went to Interim to work for a couple of hours. My office is moving again. This will be the third time that I've moved, but that's okay. At least I have an office!

Then I rushed home to get Max for his Vet appointment. Just a routine visit for his shots and yearly check-up. I rushed into the house, grabbed him up put on his harness and leash and jumped into the car. Backed out of the garage and 1/2 way down the driveway when suddenly, I felt this wetness on my thigh. Yes, Yes, Max sat on my lap and peed on me!

I pulled back up the drive, ran back into the house with him took him to the litter box. Of course, he was already done. I quick called the vets office, told them I would be a little late as Max peed on me and I needed to change clothes. The girl on the other end started snickering immediately!!

I ran in changed clothes and had to find another coat. (yeah, he got that too.) Grabbed Max again and headed back out to the car. I put a towel on my lap and he layed down and rested for the short trip to the vets.

I walked into the vets office and everbody smiled and grinned. We were there about 45 minutes and as I met different people they said, "Oh, this is the one." Even the vet that we saw was quite tickled with the whole incident.

The good news is that Max is in much better shape than we had been led to believe. His heart is good, lungs are clear and his eyes have no cataracts. The vet is new to the practice so it was our first time meeting him. He was very impressed with Max. Kept saying what a cool cat he was. Max has lost more weight. He is just under 11 lbs. (10.50).

So, I had a busy but entertaining afternoon.

Okay, update to the "Wyoming Wind Festival". It still goes on and on... Four wind related accidents were reported in Wyoming yesterday. Three involving semi's. A big wind gust of 52mph woke up Dan last night. We know the speed because the news reported what time a big wind gust hit and what it's speed was and that was the time that Dan woke up. From the news report we have a few more days of this wind. Yep, one of these days I'm going to break down and buy one of those Wyoming Wind Festival T-shirts. One must have a sense of humor about the wind or it will get the best of you!!!!!

Until Tomorrow.

I tossed and turned trying to fall asleep and felt like I did that all night long. I woke up tossing and turning too. Really tired this morning. Dan thought maybe I did too much yesterday. (Not me!)

Wind is still blowing today. They have issued a high wind warning. That means if you're driving a light weight, high profile vehicle (empty or light loaded semi's) You just might blow over!!!
Today I'm going to need a nap. I was going to town today but I will just need to go tomorrow instead. I pray that I will feel better tomorrow...

Oh, I did forget to take all of my meds this morning. Dan and I were so busy talking that I forgot all about them. So, I finally took them about 2pm. It happens. It use to happen alot. It's been a while since I've totally spaced them out.

Today was a great day. I accomplished alot! Did laundry and dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, watered plants and I didn't take a nap. I had an appointment in town at 2pm then went to the Library. After the library I went to the ice rink and skated for one hour. Then I had some time to kill before church at 6:30pm, so I went to Hobby Lobby and wandered around.

I was getting a little tired by 6:30, but survived AWANA's. Then Dan and I headed home.

Wind is still blowing. The news said its been blowing at 30-40 mph with 50 mph gusts. I try not to count the days in a row that it blows non-stop. It's just a matter of not wearing dresses and tying my hair down:)

I got up first thing this morning and showered. Well, now I remember why I stopped showering first thing in the morning. I managed to make breakfast for Dan and I and then I needed a nap. Oh well.

The wind is still blowing. I made it out to the green house today. Had some tomatoes and peppers ready for eating.

I skate this afternoon for a couple of hours.

Well, my brain fog came in. It makes me feel very far away from my body. The term, "Lights are on, but nobody's home" comes to mind. Dan was nice and drove me in to town.

My body is tired and my brain is close behind:)